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Yesterday, on FB, I vaguely alluded to going off to search for two small (but important-to-me) pieces of my past. Back in high school, I wrote a pair of sonnets that one of my teachers managed to finagle the Bowie Blade into publishing. I've since (I thought) lost any copies of them. Having had no luck at the Bowie Library or the Blade itself. I finally found microfilm copies of the paper at the Hyattsville library! I spent four hours yesterday staring and scrolling, but to no avail. See, I wasn't quite sure what *year* this happened, so I just started in summer of 1977 and went until I had to stop (in 1979 somewhere) for dinner.

BUT- when I got home, on a hunch, I started pawing through my box of paper mementos from the period (again- previous efforts failed) and I actually found the very first issue of Bowie High's literary magazine (to which I and several friends JUMPED at the chance to contribute), and there, among other fond memories, I found them: my first two actual sonnets!

So here, for Throwback Thursday- a glimpse of 17 year old proto-me trying his hand at a sophisticated poetry form:

Dusk
Steve Haug

Reflected into many forms of light
By dust and clouds that hover near the sea
The suns sets now with many colours bright
And signals brilliantly the night to be

The "outside" of the dome was bathed in red
The colours of the dusk that did abound
Were hidden from the occupants by lead
That cased the city's shield all around

They left the surface long ago, 'tis told
To seek a refuge from the hostile land
That was destroyed back in the days of old
By foolish leaders with a heavy hand

Sunset which is such a visage fair
Is caused by the pollutants in the air

Spring(?)1980

A Trashy Poem
Steve Haug

Among the boundless void of time and space
There went a planet floating in the black
Whose atmosphere sustained no life or race
All things endowing life, the world did lack

Since life this barren world could not sustain
Another world then satisfied it's need
Gigantic ships were sent that did contain
The wastes of life on which they could not feed

And from this toxic garbage left behind
Ingredients of all organic sort
Combined there forming those of larger kind
Crude life forms did this world at last support

Evolving from some garbage long disowned
Now planet Earth has garbage of it's own

Spring(?) 1980
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And from this relic and others in that box, I've finally pieced together the timeline that I needed. I took a creative writing class in the Fall of '79. (where I wrote the first one, I think) Then in spring of1980, one of my previous English teachers agreed to sponsor the start of the magazine. I jumped on it along with several of my friends and some other kids from the school and we did it: the contributions, the layout, the editing, the printing etc. It was called "etc..." So it was in the Spring of 1980 that Mrs Pippin SURPRISE! made me a published author. I didn't know she had done this until my Dad noticed that my name was in the paper. I never really found out what motivated her to do this, or why the Blade saw fit to go along. In the couple of years' worth of paper I saw before this, I saw no evidence of this ever having happened before. I don't know if it's happened since.

So I think I'll still go and try and find that issue of the Bowie Blade and make a photocopy of the page. But the important part of this is that, despite having written dozens of sonnets lately, I really wanted to somehow salvage my first two.

Mischief Managed!
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Back when I wrote my "Balticon Part II, The Darkside" post, complaining that I'd
felt taken for granted by a bunch of my friends, a couple of twits(who'll remain
anonymous) decided that it was time to hit me while I was down.

Mostly they didn't really get what I was saying.

One in particular REALLY didn't get it and in the process of comparing my plight
to other musicians they knew, displayed a naivete' about the music business that
was as funny as it was huge. They apparently know alot of geeks and assorted other
people who play alot of music (some of them pretty damn good), but they don't know
any full-timers. They don't know how different it is to have music AS your day
job and not be able to fall back on Hackers or Hacker money to fund you when you
want to cut a CD.

And FYI, Anonymous, HCB *does* ask for money when they play, They just get it up
front. My passing the hat is *exactly* the same. And when they play for free, they're
selling their CD's, which they're able to make thanks to the support of their good
friend who funds his recording studio with his day job.

Like I said. Find a successful musician, and you'll find alot of support. That's
a good thing, and worth asking for.

And while Anonymous was at it, they also resorted to the time-honored Jr High School
non-sequitor argument tactic of "You smell bad and you dress funny".

I reminded myself of how many of my role models, heroes, heroines, and inspirations
in the music industry have done SERIOUS time resembling that remark. I patted
myself on the back for being in good company and obviously on track for some
success. But I had to admit that it bugged me that someone who appartently thinks
they know me well is going to hide behind a mask so that they can insult me in
a public forum- as if I can't take constructive criticism, which this definitely was
not.

It bugged me. It pissed me off.
And then I remembered why it's *really* a bad idea to piss me off.
Never ever piss off the Bard.
I could take all of those bad things they said and own them as if they are good
things and then....
I could write a song.
If it's a bad song, then it's good therapy and good practice for the day when I
actually do write a good song.
But if *it's* a good song, people will want me to sing it. If it gets popular, it
will help me prosper in my chosen field. And that prosperity will be all the
Insulter's fault, but I won't have to share a thing with them. The more it helps
me prosper the more- well, the more it'll be like this ingenious tease that an old
friend of mine used to do to a younger sibling:

"You know, the Klingons give me a quarter every time I make you mad."
"Shut UP!"
"Kaching!"
"Stop it!"
"Kaching!" etc.

So I knew I wanted this song, but it took awhile to simmer. Then it all started
bubbling in on Sunday, and I finished it in the parking lot at UMCP yesterday,
just as the fireworks went off to hail my new creative arrival with big kabooms
and showers of pretty sparks.

Anyway, here it is with heartfelt gratitude to this anonymous insulter as well as
the other mean people in my world who helped make these words possible.
The song is a little bit country, and I chose a Johnny Cash meets Kris Kristofferson
vibe for the whole thing.
It'll debut at the next "Odd" Thursday, but there may be some tweaking and scattered
Beta Tests before then. I think it's a good song.
ExpandSmellin' Bad And Dressed Funny )

Yes, much of it, technically speaking, is fiction. Talk to some full time
musicians tho, and you'll either figure out which parts are made up or be
less certain that any of it is.

In other news today, yesterday I finished recording the last of the instrumental
tracks for my CD. What's left now is the seven vocal tracks.
Could be 7 hours, could be 70 or 700.
I'm thinking, I can still finish this by Pennsic.
That's my goal.

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